The longer and more comfortable we make His house the more our flesh changes over time, the more He takes over and we become more like Him, more like love and less like the selves we naturally are—heading for death, filled with fear and hiding from God. It is depressing, but it's good that we feel that way about the flesh because its situation and state is without hope for anything but what it is, as can be observed about it. With God all things are possible and nothing is impossible for Him.

We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. 

We continue to believe only because He continues to show us that the work which was started in us over 5 years ago has been continuing, and we are progressing, who will some day know Him fully. That is why the process began. The fact that God loves us and knows us will be completely seen, even though now because of the flesh and our love for it and preference for it, God is hidden and buried, in a way denied in us because we still want to cling to the love of ourselves. We still want to choose fear over trust and love, so we continue to hide in our dark places where we think we're safe. He loves us, though, and without that there is nothing good and no life or transformation possible—only the darkness of the prison of inevitable death and the lies about God, the state that knows nothing real. We can only love because he first loved us. We can only be like Him and know/love Him like He knows/loves us because He is love in us and there is no other way to love. There is no love outside of the Father's for His sons; everything else falls away like a flower that is beautiful but only for a moment. After that moment is gone it is plowed back into the earth to become useful to it (not very pretty after that), so that it can continue to produce for itself.

"You will not surely die," the serpent said to the woman.

We gain the ability to actually perceive the lie of the voice telling us what we have and are to God is nothing, that we shouldn't trust or believe God as it urges us to deny the fact that what He has done is the greatest gift and reality. To be loved by God is to be chosen to know Him as He has chosen to know us. To enter, to be called and invited into His presence to come to know who He is via the spirit of His love (the One who was known by Him and who knows Him perfectly). This is everything, and without this truest truth, all we have is the falseness of the natural, which is no truth about God but rather a lie.

"For God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil."

It's natural to be exactly who and what we are, our selves—this is the preferred and comfortable state for the flesh, to be itself and not change (satisfied with the self as god/king/ruler). To be like God, the opposer of the self/animal, is impossible for the flesh (the flesh can only be itself). It is God that is life, goodness and love; the flesh is nothing and can do nothing to save or change itself from death.  It is good that we can actually feel inadequate and helpless, that we know we cannot rely on what we naturally are or can do by our own will or strength. Our Hope is Him, we have nothing else—no other way, although we think we do and continue to default to our own devices.

We will learn who God is, that He is love/life and we are nothing but dead and useless—not very important in and of our selves like we naturally think. Nothing can separate us from Him. Jesus has had the victory over the animal/Adam (the one who can't know God and has chosen the god of the self), and for those God has chosen and loved, those whom He has desired to know Him, the animal is as good as dead if we choose to deny it the power to live. Nothing can call the work of God in Jesus a lie. No animal can snatch away what Jesus had delivered to Him and for Him, as it cost Jesus/God his perfect life. A part of God's eternal nature has been given; that is the deposit, the guarantee of real life, His love.