November 10th.

They had some points of dispute with him about their own religion and about a dead man named Jesus who Paul claimed was alive.

Sometimes I write like I have something and want to teach others, to tell others, to get my point across to others. Right now I understand that I have so little actual understanding where it matters, even regarding the things about which I write, because the past few years have been about learning the theory behind the transformation. That isn't necessarily a bad thing, just the way the thing is because one must know about what must happen to one before he embarks on that kind of internal journey. It does make me aware that these writings are for me as much as anyone else who may be chosen to be transformed. Ironically it is the animal nature that would want to lay out all this information for others under the assumption that comprehending the theory behind it all is the same as being transformed away from the animal. It is clever and cunning, employing its strategies in a second nature type of subliminal way, without having to even think about them. They just naturally employ themselves all on their own when the senses are aware of the need. The animal strategies happen on a level that is beneath the intellect, or the natural observe and respond, like talking or dodging a runaway snowball like rocky and bullwinkle.

I am in a sort of prison to want to come off like I know a lot or am in a position to teach, although I don't know anything and am not able to teach. That is a haughty position to assume, and no one should assume it for himself. All I know how to do well is be a defensive animal which is always prowling for threats so that it can employ its defensive strategies, and it's all on autopilot. Nor by other humans' presumption that they can appoint teachers should a son accept such a position. What I write is for me to learn and understand, which is I guess why I'm writing. The fact that it comes from me doesn't mean it's not for me, and if it's for me then I need to learn it and can hardly assume to be a teacher if I don't know it myself. Anything else that might happen is sheer bonus. If I forget that, then I can wander back into self-defense land where I am just like everyone else where it counts—in the secret places of my heart where I am truly identified before the Father.

Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You clean the outside of the cup and dish, but inside they are full of greed and self-indulgence. Blind Pharisee! First clean the inside of the cup and dish, and then the outside also will be clean.

Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You are like whitewashed tombs, which look beautiful on the outside but on the inside are full of dead men's bones and everything unclean. In the same way, on the outside you appear to people as righteous but on the inside you are full of hypocrisy and wickedness.

These are words for the sons, not those we would like to assign them to, because those we would assign them to won't even hear these words, not to mention be able to be cut to the bone and repent from the evil that lives in the animal to make him build up the walls of defense like the teachers of the law and Pharisees had, which the Son is addressing. The evil of our own inherent goodness will make us want to apply the words of the teacher to everyone else *but* us, because of course we think on that sub level even below comprehension that we are good, which is what makes us evil because we remain unclean animals that way, thinking everyone else needs to be taught except us, everyone needs to be shown what's right. That is the animal heart before God the Father of no animal, which is why the sons cannot exist in these states of subliminal self-protection and denial of the evil that lives inside them and begin to identify what they truly are, according to what actually exists in them, and not what they want to assume is there according to the animal strategies of self-love.

The sons of God will be fooled into thinking they have something when they don't, based on the lies that come from the animal that rules all the humans, who like to use their human power to appoint themselves and others who are like them, who say the correct words which keep their institutions intact and operational—who don't offend the members of those institutions. The sons are not whisked away from the animal nature upon their new birth, but completely controlled by it. The difference between after birth and before birth is that after, they will actually be taught that they are controlled by it whereas before they cannot comprehend it. Only the spirit of the Father and the Son can reveal it to them. The automatic transformation from unclean animal to son doesn't exist, as is presumed so often by the writings, esp. the book of Acts where 35 years of the record of the spirit's work has been squished into 28 chapters. In the beginning we get fooled into thinking or assuming things are what they're not and vice versa, which is the predicament we preach so much, that the animal is deceived and everything is relative for it.

The things I myself should be doing I want to tell others to do, because of course I think I'm fine—just one of the many deceptions of the animal on the animal. One significant deception is how I form my understanding of God, because since everything about the animal consciousness is biased and relative to my circumstances, then my understanding of God will be tainted by the same relativism and circumstantial reality that I am good and everything gets filtered through that lens. Everything gets tainted by the way that the animal looks at everything, and has developed its consciousness regarding its own experience in each particular individual, even and especially its comprehension of God. That is how God made the curse of Gen 3 to work in the humans, so that it would be perfect and seamless, not even noticeable to us so that we don't all just see and realize, then turn a become clean. Why would God want 500 million animals squishing in to where He lives? Yeah He's bigger than we can know, but that doesn't mean He isn't real and doesn't have expected desires like wanting to actually know on an intimate level those who would become close to Him. He is not an infallible machine—the humans are created according to (not exactly like) the way God is; they were not created in a vacuum or according to unfamiliar ways. Those ways already existed before they were being created, and they existed as how God is, who created them.

On the other hand, that information is kept from the animals, who always want to consider God as some perfect machine that can't be known. The life of God and the way of God is not found in what the human mind can fathom and comprehend about Him, His way, the world, my place in it, etc. because again, He doesn't want them to know in a generic publicly disclosed kind of way. He decides and chooses who gets to know, as per the revelation about Himself to them. But that hardly means that the revelation means they are automatically all clean and righteous. No not at all, because becoming clean and right is something that has to be searched for and found, and then it has to be searched for some more, and then comes the squeezing out of that which contaminates that one, once just a little bit of information has begun to take hold in the one. In order to make a stupid dull animal into a being like God, there is no amount of small work to be done. There is no lightness or easiness to it because the ramifications are so high.

The human mind is of and about the animal that is being preaching about in these pages. It is formed and developed in me by my circumstances and environment mixed with the nature that's in me as it is in all the human animals, which forms my own unique identity as an unclean animal with all its particular characteristics, biases, fears, etc. I have my own ability to postulate, conjecture and come to conclusions about concepts—for instance what is the truth about God. But so does every other human animal. So whatever I come up with and can find consensus about isn't true in God's reality, because His reality must be personally revealed. Although it may be true in my own personal reality, which is the way it's supposed to go for the humans—to be able to find some real peace in believing that what they think is going to happen to them will, even and especially if that is not God's reality. That's just God's mercy to allow the humans to believe whatever they want, to even give them an extra-natural reason to believe it within themselves, all in order to find that peace. In God's reality there are only His chosen sons, and everyone else. He chooses His sons, and His sons will eventually judge the rest of the world with the perfect justice of God, because they've inherited His nature and been made One with Him, just as Jesus has already been made One with God—the most perfect relationship between Father and Son.

Which of you fathers, if your son asks for a fish, will give him a snake instead? Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the holy spirit to those who ask him!

There is a modern day conception of evil which is different than Jesus' conception of it. The reason Jesus called the people "evil" sometimes isn't necessarily because they were extraordinarily mean or sinful. He was merely comparing them with himself. At that time he was the only one who was not evil—not controlled by the animal and its own consciousness—only because the life of God lived inside him, mixed with his own choice to be led by that life, the voice of his Father, instead of the voice of the serpent (as in the temptation accounts). The presence of the Father's life in Jesus' body/heart was making him clean, unlike all the other human animals; and his choice to listen to and be led only by the voice of the Father is what maintained that relationship of God living in him. All of the other human animals were ruled by the animal, which made them evil, and he wasn't. He had the true understanding of God that they couldn't have, because of that spirit of truth that lived inside him and changed him from evil to not evil.

I tell you the truth: Among those born of women there has not risen anyone greater than John the Baptist; yet he who is least in the kingdom of heaven is greater than he.

For this reason he could also speak so highly of John the Baptist, because he was of the same stock and breed of human—the stock of God instead of man, son instead of animal, spiritual not earthly or natural, controlled by the nature and spirit of God, not by the nature of the serpent (animal nature). Not just a conceptual but reality, which is what I'm saying about myself and the other sons—for us it remains conceptual until we are able to accept the reality; for Jesus and John, at the time in their life when the preserved words are recorded, it was already a reality.

I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful.

You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you.

The humans whom Jesus knew were chosen by God to become sons, according to His intention that they be, were made clean by that intention even though they were unclean, evil creatures made that way because of the curse that is upon all the humans—bound to the nature of the animal, led by it, sons of the serpent, therefore evil. However, just as Jesus had to make the choice to listen to and be led by the Father's voice instead of the animal's, they had to choose to obey his words and commands, spoken while he was still a human; then later they would be in the same relationship with Jesus and the Father that Jesus was in at the time he lived in his human body.

Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.

The words and commands of Jesus to those men says something about value, how what men value as great is directly disproportional to what God values. What the animal considers treasure is in direct opposition to what Jesus considered treasure, and the seeking of one will hinder the seeking of the other. John had found the treasure of God, yet he wasn't great in the eyes of the world. What Jesus told his disciples to do was in direct opposition to what the animal told them.

A dispute arose among them as to which of them was considered to be greatest. Jesus said to them, "The kings of the Gentiles lord it over them; and those who exercise authority over them call themselves Benefactors. But you are not to be like that. Instead, the greatest among you should be like the youngest, and the one who rules like the one who serves. For who is greater, the one who is at the table or the one who serves? Is it not the one who is at the table? But I am among you as one who serves. You are those who have stood by me in my trials. And I confer on you a kingdom, just as my Father conferred one on me, so that you may eat and drink at my table in my kingdom and sit on thrones, judging the twelve tribes of Israel.

Letting go of what man considers valuable is what happens to those who know what is valuable to God. However that cannot be done with the mind of the animal, and in the beginning and for a long while, that's all the sons have—even if the intention of God is there by the seed being planted. The seed of the life of God living in the man has to grow in order to resemble what it is intended to eventually be. When it's just a seed, it doesn't look anything like a tree. Without the gift of God that actually allows us to make this comprehension, we are doomed to only know man's values, and remaining an animal that is dead to God, according to His reality. Before the seed is planted there is nothing, only yet another dying component of the present creation, which is based upon and functions because of all the various components that keep it going. As long as one of the creatures are merely another of these parts of this creation, then that's what they are. The sons become part of another creation, another kingdom which is invisible—that which the first Son belonged to according to the choice, intention and doing of the Father of all the sons who are chosen to become members of this kingdom.

The kingdom of heaven is like a mustard seed, which a man took and planted in his field. Though it is the smallest of all your seeds, yet when it grows, it is the largest of garden plants and becomes a tree, so that the birds of the air come and perch in its branches.

That is why the leaders of institutions claiming to know the way to God via their made up jesuses cannot know, because they want to mesh the two realities. They want to be honored and respected according to man, and also think they can be pleasing to God, but the two are so completely opposite one another that if one seeks what the humans love, one cannot also be pleasing to God, and hypocrisy is the only thing that can ever come from that because they cannot actually ever obey Jesus' commands, although they claim to. Animals cannot love, which is the final reality and judgment of God about the animals.

The self-appointed leaders will never understand that, if they did they wouldn't stand up in front of an assembly of humans and assume to teach them the way to God. But it is what the sons will have to learn, and they learn it by being shown how much they are led by the animal, how that defines them as merely an animal, and how they can never be pleasing to the Father as such. Their assumptions about how intrinsically valuable they are to God, which comes from the animal nature that rules them and defines them as animals, have to be systematically quashed via the teaching that goes on inside them.

It's a long journey to learn how to not be led, instructed and deceived by that enemy of God which is the son himself, not some external entity called the devil, from whom the son can conveniently just divorce himself or easily separate himself. Around every thought and corner it is there, because it's him—his thoughts, his character, his likes and desires, his prejudices and partialities, his ability to maneuver and manipulate to get what he wants, needs and craves because of the same thing. So it all perfectly turns on itself and feeds on itself and it is the perfectly seamless and flawless design of God, who only could have made it just as He made everything else that's made to go along and along.

When we find what is truly valuable to Jesus, then man's values will slowly fall away from us, as per the transformation and the parable of the seed turning into the tree. We will by the definition of the situation become nothings in the world's judgment, as Paul became. That is also why it won't work to try to be "godly," as some humans do, by trying to be meek and gentle or whatever they think being "godly" is in the conception of their own mind. It just doesn't work because it's not genuine. God's true sons will be made that way by the process He initiates and controls, invisible to the humans, and that intention along with their choice to follow will be what makes them genuine.

The man who loves his life will lose it, while the man who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life. Whoever serves me must follow me; and where I am, my servant also will be. My Father will honor the one who serves me.

So to a certain extent these writings are theoretical, because I know the fundamentals with an academic knowledge, but I am still an animal, controlled by the animal nature all my life, against which I preach. Apparently that does not disqualify me from speaking about it, because the information keeps coming and I am still writing. Now it still controls me, however now there is something different because I know about it, whereas before I had no clue even of its existence, and I know something now that I didn't know before a few years ago—the intention of son ship exists within me and is growing, as per the words of Jesus.

The animal that controls me doesn't want to let go of its control, because that's what it's supposed to do, perfectly and seamlessly. It cannot trust anything except for what it knows. So I still act to keep this ne life theoretical because of my fear of what I do not, cannot know, and because I cannot trust anything that I can't understand with this earthly mind, feel with this earthly body or see with these earthly eyes. The belief that what's happening is true, and me choosing what reflects that belief is what makes it grow, because that's what is pleasing to the Father.

So then, King Agrippa, I was not disobedient to the vision from heaven. First to those in Damascus, then to those in Jerusalem and in all Judea, and to the Gentiles also, I preached that they should repent and turn to God and prove their repentance by their deeds.

Fear is the trait that is most prevalent about animals, and the thing they would be least likely to admit rules them. Fear is the thing that makes us want to love money, because money allows us to assuage our fears by building up stuff around us so that we feel a little more insulated, less vulnerable. Same for ego, which allows us to feel a little better about ourselves with regards to our place in the world, a little more insulated from the fact that we are alone and apart from God and His love. It makes us feel acceptable in this world where everyone is too afraid to accept each other.

The correct understanding of God coincides perfectly with the actual plight of the animal, which is explained by the Genesis incident, and the reason for all the problems of man. Fearful, afraid, disconnected, unfulfilled little animals running around pretending they are not exactly that, and each of the human animals are merely one of many who are hoodwinked by the animal nature and deceived by the snake to think they're any different. Each one thinks it's so very special, different and privileged, even though they are all extraordinarily banal and run-of-the-mill. They live and die just like everyone and everything else—the rats, dogs, plants and flies.

You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it; you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.

The advantage of the sons is that they begin to know about their condition, which is an integral part of the transformation, by the creation of a humble heart which is not deceived by the snake to think so highly of themselves, what all the animals naturally do, according to God's wishes, so they remain unclean. Our hope and belief will lead to its removal from us, so that what was done to Adam can be undone, which is the gospel that Jesus preached.

Jesus answered, "I tell you the truth, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless he is born of water and the Spirit. Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit gives birth to spirit. You should not be surprised at my saying, `You must be born from above.' The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit."

This is the ultimate hope of the son, the treasure—to find the Father's love that was lost by Adam, and is so hidden now. To be born from above, adopted by the true and living God, made a son and citizen of the kingdom of the spirit. It is the treasure that now has to be sought after and hunted for by the one who has that seed planted in him. When he finds out that it exists, and where it is, then he can become like the man in the parable who sold everything to buy the field where it is buried. Nothing in this life can come close to that, to knowing the Father's love. That is the kingdom, what we seek after. It is the inheritance of the son, God Himself because God is love.

The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field. When a man found it, he hid it again, and then in his joy went and sold all he had and bought that field.

We can also conclude that the spirit, which is the life of the only true and living God, living in our heart, is the only repairer of that breach that happened with Adam. That was the new covenant that the sons who lived in the first century were under. Being given the gift of the spirit, as Jesus promised, was not being given the ability to prophesy or speak in tongues or heal people as much as it was being given the ability to find our way back to God's love that Adam knew before he died, that Jesus knew, what made him not evil. Speaking in tongues, prophesying, having knowledge and faith that led to the most tremendous acts of belief were only by-products of the spirit and its real purpose—to transform some of the humans from fearful ashamed animals to sons of the most high God who don't have the nature of the animal but instead have the nature of a son of God which is genuine and honest, because of intention born by the perfect love that can only come from the Father.

We questioned the elders and asked them, "Who authorized you to rebuild this temple and restore this structure?"
Jesus entered the temple courts, and, while he was teaching, the chief priests and the elders of the people came to him. "By what authority are you doing these things?" they asked. "And who gave you this authority?"

Nebuchadnezzar the Chaldean, king of Babylon, destroyed this temple and deported the people to Babylon.
Jesus answered them, "Destroy this temple, and I will raise it again in three days."

To those who sold doves he said, "Get these out of here! How dare you turn my Father's house into a market!"
His disciples remembered that it is written: "Zeal for your house will consume me."

They do not turn to the Most High; they are like a faulty bow. Their leaders will fall by the sword because of their insolent words. For this they will be ridiculed in the land of Egypt.

But Moses sought the favor of the LORD his God. "O LORD," he said, "why should your anger burn against your people, whom you brought out of Egypt with great power and a mighty hand? Why should the Egyptians say, `It was with evil intent that he brought them out, to kill them in the mountains and to wipe them off the face of the earth'? Turn from your fierce anger; relent and do not bring disaster on your people.